The Dream of Motherhood by Elvengirl6281, literature
Literature
The Dream of Motherhood
It seems so strange
So unusually strange
To live a dream that is moments
Moments later than it is happening
It is so different
So different to live where you wanted to wait
Wait because you werent ready
As diffferent as it is
As strange as it is
The world turns
Time doesnt seem to stop
Struggles come and live and rest
Depression removed by joy
Despite it all
Despite the strangeness and weirdness
Despite it all you still live the dream
You live even if it came true too soon
Watching as your body changes
Feeling intensified fear
Fear of not just yourself
But of the dream you are carrying
This dream is a reality
You cant st
Thanks To You My Wounds Healed by Elvengirl6281, literature
Literature
Thanks To You My Wounds Healed
My heart is in love
But my heart is in pain
I can not remove the scars
Despite how I have tried
I love my sailor
And he mends my wounds
But what we can never remove
The scars that were left behind
It is not his fault
The pain I have earned
I feel bad for making him suffer too
But I am glad I am no longer alone
That there is someone
That there is something
Who will fight for me
I suddenly want to give in
I want to submit
I want to ask for help
I dont deserve to get
But despite this wonderful feeling
Despite how I have healed
I know I must stay strong
And do muchon my own
Dear sailor
I am glad you are the angel from heav
No clouds in a gorgeous sky
No death to chase the dreams away
Flowers dancing in the fields
Hope is sing to give meaning
A river gently moving by
And birds fly across the sky
Trees grow tall and sweet
Fruit they bare for all to keep
Why there is a rabbit hopping happily
And a deer prancing wnderfully
Who would dare destroy suchh beauty?
Such perfect joy?
Why no perfect soul would
No content soul would
But all is too still
Too perfect to be real
It is nothing more than a dream
A sweet dream in a childs head
Outside there is pain
A woman crying
A man yelling
Guns firing
People dying
Dream on sweet child
Dont let the pain
The heart of the dream
The heart of the life
The part of a child
Who has laid down her head
A simple kiss
A simple hope
Her mother prays
Will help her cope
A child lived through hell
A child a product of pain
Asleep without knowledge
Dreams of peace and candy canes
It is terrible to see
That this child could be me
Daydreaming of love
Daydreaming of peace
Only a hope to end the pain
Only the shelter in my head
Never feeling safe
Always feeling insane
I have been through Hell
I have seen Satan's face
I no longer fear living
I no longer fear death
The product of pain
The product of suffering
Still dreaming of peace
Lov
What is this?
What is it not?
A heart that yearns
A heart that does not
A heart that hopes
It's soul does not
Why does this happen?
Why does it not?
There is nothing to dream
There is nothing to live
Life is a dream
Life is dreamless
What is it we seek?
What is it we dont?
Why do we contradict?
Why do we not?
This is the heart of it all
This is the heart of pain
This is the heart of love
We do not see any of these things
We do not even notice
We are blind forever
Only until we admit it
Will we be able to see
That the heart of the world
Is contradictions
What peace is afforded to me by escape?
What kind of mess did I leave behind?
I only saved my sorry life
I didnt stop to think about them
What did I do?
What pain did I cause?
I only thought of myself
Not the pain they would go through
Why didnt I think?
Why didnt I see?
I should of known he wouldnt change
Should have known that they would become hopless
I only thought of myself
I only cared about myself
My fears have been proven
But that didnt help them
Now they suffer anytime I'm away
I was the scapegoat of his rage
I was the one who took the front
Now they face it alone
I'm still Glad I left
But I left no peace for my
Go When You Know Is Right by Elvengirl6281, literature
Literature
Go When You Know Is Right
I cant believe my eyes
The youth that she reclaimed
She isnt young
But she is no longer as old
Her wisdom unchanged
Her words speak to my soul
She says she is ready
She says she is waiting
She thinks there is a place better than heaven
She knows he'll be waiting
Why is she waiting
Before she moves on?
Is her son not aware
Or does he not care?
I feel for her
Though she knows he might not come
So off to the one who is waiting
She might go
But thanks I received
For all that I've done
For trying to make her happy
And comfortable
Thank you for being my Grandmother
And you deserve to be comfortable
I know you will go to the
Death And Rebirth .:New Hope:. by Elvengirl6281, literature
Literature
Death And Rebirth .:New Hope:.
I find joy and sadness
In just two days they came together
One person is dying
And another comes back to life
The joy and sorrow is tough
The confused emotion hard to handle
But at least happiness exists
At leasts it's not gone
The one I thought was gone
She returns
Other than my mother
She was the one to see me for me
My grandmother is going
Moving to the next world soon
87 years experience behind her
One I missed
One I will miss dearly
Both loved more than they know
I pray for continued good memories
I pray for as much time as possible
Be it talk or time in general with both
Blessed crone may the passage be peaceful
Bl
The world is so small
Yet the dangers are so real
Some are outside of the family
And rarely with the family
You know you are invisible
When your father doesn't listen
You know you weren't loved
When he raises his hand
I have never seen this before
In all my 19 years
Never had this man ever threatened me like this
Not within my memory
I now fear him more than before
I want to avoid him even more
I do not feel safe anywhere anymore
And I do not want to feel this way
Why did this happen?
He was discussing things I had forgot
Did he regress as I progressed?
Did I gain and he loose?
I hate this idea of me growing older
And my
The Dream of Motherhood by Elvengirl6281, literature
Literature
The Dream of Motherhood
It seems so strange
So unusually strange
To live a dream that is moments
Moments later than it is happening
It is so different
So different to live where you wanted to wait
Wait because you werent ready
As diffferent as it is
As strange as it is
The world turns
Time doesnt seem to stop
Struggles come and live and rest
Depression removed by joy
Despite it all
Despite the strangeness and weirdness
Despite it all you still live the dream
You live even if it came true too soon
Watching as your body changes
Feeling intensified fear
Fear of not just yourself
But of the dream you are carrying
This dream is a reality
You cant st
Thanks To You My Wounds Healed by Elvengirl6281, literature
Literature
Thanks To You My Wounds Healed
My heart is in love
But my heart is in pain
I can not remove the scars
Despite how I have tried
I love my sailor
And he mends my wounds
But what we can never remove
The scars that were left behind
It is not his fault
The pain I have earned
I feel bad for making him suffer too
But I am glad I am no longer alone
That there is someone
That there is something
Who will fight for me
I suddenly want to give in
I want to submit
I want to ask for help
I dont deserve to get
But despite this wonderful feeling
Despite how I have healed
I know I must stay strong
And do muchon my own
Dear sailor
I am glad you are the angel from heav
No clouds in a gorgeous sky
No death to chase the dreams away
Flowers dancing in the fields
Hope is sing to give meaning
A river gently moving by
And birds fly across the sky
Trees grow tall and sweet
Fruit they bare for all to keep
Why there is a rabbit hopping happily
And a deer prancing wnderfully
Who would dare destroy suchh beauty?
Such perfect joy?
Why no perfect soul would
No content soul would
But all is too still
Too perfect to be real
It is nothing more than a dream
A sweet dream in a childs head
Outside there is pain
A woman crying
A man yelling
Guns firing
People dying
Dream on sweet child
Dont let the pain
The heart of the dream
The heart of the life
The part of a child
Who has laid down her head
A simple kiss
A simple hope
Her mother prays
Will help her cope
A child lived through hell
A child a product of pain
Asleep without knowledge
Dreams of peace and candy canes
It is terrible to see
That this child could be me
Daydreaming of love
Daydreaming of peace
Only a hope to end the pain
Only the shelter in my head
Never feeling safe
Always feeling insane
I have been through Hell
I have seen Satan's face
I no longer fear living
I no longer fear death
The product of pain
The product of suffering
Still dreaming of peace
Lov
What is this?
What is it not?
A heart that yearns
A heart that does not
A heart that hopes
It's soul does not
Why does this happen?
Why does it not?
There is nothing to dream
There is nothing to live
Life is a dream
Life is dreamless
What is it we seek?
What is it we dont?
Why do we contradict?
Why do we not?
This is the heart of it all
This is the heart of pain
This is the heart of love
We do not see any of these things
We do not even notice
We are blind forever
Only until we admit it
Will we be able to see
That the heart of the world
Is contradictions
What peace is afforded to me by escape?
What kind of mess did I leave behind?
I only saved my sorry life
I didnt stop to think about them
What did I do?
What pain did I cause?
I only thought of myself
Not the pain they would go through
Why didnt I think?
Why didnt I see?
I should of known he wouldnt change
Should have known that they would become hopless
I only thought of myself
I only cared about myself
My fears have been proven
But that didnt help them
Now they suffer anytime I'm away
I was the scapegoat of his rage
I was the one who took the front
Now they face it alone
I'm still Glad I left
But I left no peace for my
Go When You Know Is Right by Elvengirl6281, literature
Literature
Go When You Know Is Right
I cant believe my eyes
The youth that she reclaimed
She isnt young
But she is no longer as old
Her wisdom unchanged
Her words speak to my soul
She says she is ready
She says she is waiting
She thinks there is a place better than heaven
She knows he'll be waiting
Why is she waiting
Before she moves on?
Is her son not aware
Or does he not care?
I feel for her
Though she knows he might not come
So off to the one who is waiting
She might go
But thanks I received
For all that I've done
For trying to make her happy
And comfortable
Thank you for being my Grandmother
And you deserve to be comfortable
I know you will go to the
Death And Rebirth .:New Hope:. by Elvengirl6281, literature
Literature
Death And Rebirth .:New Hope:.
I find joy and sadness
In just two days they came together
One person is dying
And another comes back to life
The joy and sorrow is tough
The confused emotion hard to handle
But at least happiness exists
At leasts it's not gone
The one I thought was gone
She returns
Other than my mother
She was the one to see me for me
My grandmother is going
Moving to the next world soon
87 years experience behind her
One I missed
One I will miss dearly
Both loved more than they know
I pray for continued good memories
I pray for as much time as possible
Be it talk or time in general with both
Blessed crone may the passage be peaceful
Bl
The world is so small
Yet the dangers are so real
Some are outside of the family
And rarely with the family
You know you are invisible
When your father doesn't listen
You know you weren't loved
When he raises his hand
I have never seen this before
In all my 19 years
Never had this man ever threatened me like this
Not within my memory
I now fear him more than before
I want to avoid him even more
I do not feel safe anywhere anymore
And I do not want to feel this way
Why did this happen?
He was discussing things I had forgot
Did he regress as I progressed?
Did I gain and he loose?
I hate this idea of me growing older
And my
The Dream of Motherhood by Elvengirl6281, literature
Literature
The Dream of Motherhood
It seems so strange
So unusually strange
To live a dream that is moments
Moments later than it is happening
It is so different
So different to live where you wanted to wait
Wait because you werent ready
As diffferent as it is
As strange as it is
The world turns
Time doesnt seem to stop
Struggles come and live and rest
Depression removed by joy
Despite it all
Despite the strangeness and weirdness
Despite it all you still live the dream
You live even if it came true too soon
Watching as your body changes
Feeling intensified fear
Fear of not just yourself
But of the dream you are carrying
This dream is a reality
You cant st
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