Elvengirl6281

I am so busy again. Between school, work, and trying to keep as much sanity as I can. I am happy and not. I am learning so much. OR am I admitting to stuff I have already known?    I am in theater this semester to my surprise. I didnt really see the teacher aiding me with such a quest as to get me in the class. granted all the work is truly my own but I was given a step in the right direction. I didnt get a big role which is fine by me, but I do have a character. No lines, three songs, and all I do is walk around the stage from what i understand. the character isnt entirely defined yet because the teacher doesnt know if the character will b

I am finally able to say I have given up. I have given up not on myself, but on the one who has plagued my mind with misery and hopelessness and self blame. I am tired of being told it is all my fault when all logic points to her. She had the decision, she asked me my opinion and all the options. I told her it all and I told her what I preferred. She didnt do as I hoped. She said it was my fault. I had to go to a funeral and was unable to be there for her to prevent her from making a mistake, and she is blaming me for the option she took. I can't handle it anymore. I had to stop it. I finally told her I couldn't handle it. And that she had hu

I decided to do something different for my deviant ID I may be forever on it but I will definately be working on it. I wont tell you what im doing bc I may never end up finishing it to put up. Also I am doing wonderful in school got my next sememster classes figured out and I'm excited. Also I am going to wait until I get done with the semester before I put my school papers up here. I am ready to see winter weather too. We get close, but still npot cold enough. My poor apartment is boiling too. I am going crazy!!! Ah!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I'm okay I promise. Anyway, I am going to try to have new art and lit up soon. so dont think I forgot. I am just